Abby Andrews

Did you know magic is real?
I didn’t
I thought it was like the movies
but I am a trained scientist
the two have trouble
getting along

Then all the structured walls
came crashing down around me
like never knowing water
and being cast into the sea
in all of the chaos
a glimmer appeared
I did not know what it was
but I knew that I knew
what it was
the old one inside of me
cracked open an eyelid
and was flooded with relief

Some live and die
having never seen that glimmer
or ignoring it if they do

But my white-knuckled hands latched onto it
like it was a life raft
which it indeed was
that glimmer of light and dark
life force
spark of creation

I am in no hurry
the hustle has stopped
withered and died like the leaves of a deciduous tree

My motivation no longer comes from an external driver
a narrative of comparison and expiration dates

My motivation is my holy desire

My soul in the driver’s seat with my heart riding shotgun
Thelma and Louise style
holding hands as they drive off the cliff of the matrix
into the eternal astral plane

There is no one left to tell me what to do
I will kill the curse to find the blessing
I get to choose, create, dictate and dream

How do you move in the world
when you are certain the world is here for you to enjoy?
To dive into, tear open
finding yourself within the skin of all beings

Joy

Joy

Joy

Here it is
I am finally free
ring the bells
gather the water
for the ties that bind have been broken
and my wrists bleed a million colours onto the page
My legs twitch at the potential
as it gathers like a gentle wave
pulling me to sea
where there are no roofs, walls or watches
ticking and boxing life away